Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Are you really defeated??? Getting past depression, guilt and shame!

      Getting past depression, shame and guilt!

Are you feeling defeated, has guilt, shame and depression brought you down?
 Are you living in a pit that seems to feel like quick sand?

I KNOW people don't talk about this ugly thing called depression, I know...Living in a world where we deny our feelings or pretending to be ok.
Sometimes believing  that what we are going through is just not that important to others. Living in a world were we have to put on a face of  "No, I'm fine"..
While you feel like your dying inside. No one gets you, no one understands what you feel.
Believe me I get it. I started battling depression at 21, I was a young single mother of 2 boys. I felt alone, confused and I had to force myself to work and provide for my children. I pushed through the undying feeling and found liquor as the answer. This went on for years until I found spirituality as liquor was no longer filling the void.
But are we truly created to live this way?. I say NO, a big NO, but why do some struggle with this and some don't?
Like myself I used liquor to avoid the feeling, some use drugs,shopping, sex, money, exercise, or work.
When there is a void(depression,shame,guilt,condemnation) that is not acknowledged it begins to destroy you. To some extend we all have some of these feelings, some people more than others. The suppressed emotions lead to a fiery pit.
                                                         But can we get out is the key question?
-While you are in the middle of these emotions you can feel hopeless, simply reaching out to someone will help.
-Taking a step to forgive yourself and who ever has hurt you.
-Sitting down to acknowledge what you are feeling. Maybe writing it down, releasing the anger in a constructive way.
-Writing  a letter to yourself, what would you say to yourself (what would you want to hear?)
-My favorite go somewhere were you can SCREAM it out. Depression can be sadness, or anger that has been suppressed.
-I know while in the pit everything feels miserable, but just ask God for help. Just one word, HELP, he will know exactly what you need.

For me prayer has helped me out, while my problem with depression has changed drastically there will be times that sometimes it wants to sneak in. Before I lived in depression, not anymore. If I feel any sadness, or hopelessness now I just pray, I give it up to God. I now know that if I'm feeling sad I can deal with it quicker and faster. Deal with what I'm currently facing and end it. I have added a prayer that feel will also help you, I know it helps me.

Prepare yourself for each day's spiritual challenges by making the following prayer part of your morning routine:

"Dear Lord, as I get out of bed today, I know I'm stepping onto a battlefield. But I also know You've given me everything I need to stand firm. So in the power of Your Holy Spirit, I put on the armor of God:

"First, I place the helmet of salvation on my head. Protect my mind and imagination. Guard my eyes, allowing no sin to creep in. Focus my thoughts on the things of God. Let the breastplate of righteousness keep my heart and emotions safe. I pray that I won't be governed by my feelings, but by truth. Wrap Your Word around me like a belt. And safeguard me from error. I put on the sandals of peace to guide my steps. Plant my feet in Your truth. Empower me to stand firm against attack.

"Next, I take up the shield of faith. Protect me from Satan's fiery arrows. Place me shoulder to shoulder with Your army to oppose the Devil's schemes. Finally, I take up the sword of the Spirit, Your Word. Help me to read the Bible in a fresh, exciting way so I will always be ready to deflect attacks and pierce hearts with Your truth.

"I know I'll face assaults today, Lord. But You've empowered me to stand firm. Give me strength for the battle today."
Without God's armor, you're as vulnerable as a soldier who goes into battle wearing only a bathing suit. Get dressed for success!

I know that you and I were made to be victorious, 
I send many blessings your way.
Angie Castillo
Lifestyle Coaching
"Empowering you to be who you are meant to be"

Friday, January 24, 2014

Black...oh lala

Black...oh lala

Strapless tube top

Givenchy zipper jacket

Black suede jacket
$705 - wolfandbadger.com

H&M jersey knit pants
$33 - hm.com

Hermès clasp purse
$18,685 - cloutshoppe.com

Bcbgmaxazria handbag

Stripped skirt with a touch of gold

day to night Black Tapered dress

Monday, January 20, 2014

What I'm dreaming....

It's Martin Luther King day, let's celebrate our dreams.....

I have a dream...Anyone who has ever heard this knows that Martin Luther King paved the ways for the dreamers, doers and believers.

I love that this man set the example for so many, I see that he envisioned a world were black and white could come together, I don't think he realized that if it wasn't for him, Hispanics, Asian, and other Ethnicity's would come together as well. 
Another thing I admire is how he believed in his dream so much he became passionate about it. He spoke truth into his dream. Which brings me to .....What is your dream???

How much time and effort do we give into our dreams. Do you speak into your dreams. Do you see them coming into fruition? What is speaking into your dreams?? Well let' s cover all these questions...

I think the first thing to address is What is your dream? and have you given up on your dream?
As you know I lost mine..Lost, yes lost it, couldn't find it. I didn't know what it was. "Funny right?" how do you loose a dream. See I tucked into a place very deep into my mind and heart so, so deep that I couldn't find it.
I felt miserable for years, I felt lost and confused doing meaningless jobs. Wait not all, (I loved being a Personal Trainer) but most jobs.
 I would last 4-5 years in a job then I was done. I would get frustrated and move on. This went on for a good 17 years. Then, baamm in my face!!!
How did it happen you ask? I dug deep, I knew something was missing, so I went into my Psyche and did some work.. Backtrack, My first memory was I loved fitness, and dance, then went younger and younger, ha..at seventeen I gave up my dream of being a fashion designer, was this it? So went deeper in my memories, what else did I love?, ok, Lot's of dance, and play, and sewing...ok finally, sewing-designing-playing-being with myself>>>> MY dream has always been to work for myself to design clothes. The dream of making on paper come into reality. Seeing it in my mind and then holding it in my hands. This was and is my dream.
So now that I told you how I did it, you have homework to do...Make a list of all the things you loved backtrack to your childhood, it your heart beats a different beat that's the one...

Next...Speaking into your dreams.
What does this mean?, when you have your dream Speak it, Say it, tell the people you trust about it. (Please be aware that not everyone will be on board, please keep this only to those who will support you)..Speaking into your dreams is for example Martin Luther King, telling yourself and others. I have a dream that I can....That I will....believing that you can do this by telling yourself constantly. Never giving up regardless of the time it will take you.

Next...Goals. Plans
To bring your dreams into fruition you have to plan and make goals...for example say that you want to be a Clown at the circus. (I know I'm creative but humor me here). So what do I have to do to become a clown?.
Well 1st. Goal is to buy makeup/paint. 2nd. Buy an outfit, 3rd. Buy shoes, 4th. Buy wig, 5th. Get business cards, 6th Tell friends if anyone has resources to the circus or research how to get into the circus.
 As you see, a goal is a small step leading into your dreams. People tend to think that a goal is a Final step "NO" it's just the next step...Make a list and cross things off.
I'll share mine...To be a designer. 1. Practice as much my sketching. 2. Look for a sewer 3. Look for fashion shows. 4. Volunteer at events and get the behind the scenes. That's just the beginning. But I have all these down.
Small step will lead into making your dreams come true allowing them to come into fruition.

I love this quote..."Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase"

As you pursue your dreams there might be days when you want to give up. But stick to having faith, believe in yourself and your dreams. Know that deep down you can make it happen. Martin Luther King had a dream, never did he think it would become such a huge impact. What if your dream will impact the world in a huge way!!!!

Thank you for taking the time to read this week's blog, Please remember never give up on
                                                               Angie Castillo
                                                             Life style Coaching