Saturday, December 28, 2013

What if God loved you??!! Walking away from being a Psychic Medium...

Living in a world of to much info!

As I've been away for a couple a weeks from blogging it was only to gain clarity from the chaos. Christmas is over, now to new beginnings. Yippy 2014!!
I have to get brave here, this is a touchy subject....
       So, I began my spiritual journey oh maybe 7 years ago. You see I came down with this condition called PSYCHIC! Wow, not your everyday cold or flu. It's a lot like Cancer. It's scary, the opposite through You want to die, not it wants to kill you.
Then 7 and a half years later I've given my life to the LORD. What a surprise?
                                                                 Maybe not!!. Read on...
Let me begin, 7 or 8 years ago while working as a Personal Trainer a co-worker noticed something in me  that was very familiar to her as well. One day she dropped the "Bomb" and said that I had the same ability as her to see dead people. I refused to believe this, but looking back it made sense to my life. Well she was in and out of my life quick, only to leave me with now what? 
Soon I found myself at the nearest book store looking for anything I could find on Psychics, Mediums and whatever else. This was the beginning of my journey. I began to meditate, study, take classes, you name it I did the whole enchilada on Metaphysics and spirituality. After 4, 5 years I became a teacher, teaching others on so many topics of healing, readings, energy, entity clearings. You name it I was teaching.. People thought I had it all figured out. I looked amazing, people loved being around my presence. I always got compliments on how peaceful and joyful I was.  Little did they know that at night I would lay down and ask God where are you?, why do I feel so stuck?, why do I feel so empty?, what is missing? 
For months I asked these questions, I started getting to the point of me asking many times in the day, I was becoming really confused on what I was teaching it wasn't feeling good anymore.
 Life was about making money, more money, and more money. The more I focused on making money the less I had. Men, sex, manipulation was the new thing I got entangled in by the modality I was learning and using. Everyone using this modality portrays to be doing great, that life is so amazing..they keep asking "How does it get any better?" yet, I haven't met anyone who truly is happy. Not even the founder or co-founder. 
  All of this was going against my morals, values and principals. This modality was drawing me more away from God. It didn't make sense. I cried out to God help me!! Please help me! I prayed so much and cried out continuously.
 He listened, he heard my cry. God pulled me out of what I was falling into, it was a deep hole. It took many month to feel better. Letting go of 7+ years of learnings that where not good for me. It's been rough, I can't lie. I was lying to myself everyday telling myself I was ok, and I wasn't.
       I'm now learning God's ways, the love he has for us. I feel so much joy I feel very different. I don't feel a need to have things or portray to the world what I am not.
      I'm I gifted? yes, very gifted, I'm I using my gifts at the moment like I was before? No, I stopped my business, teaching and everything I was doing. I could see how the enemy(demons) use all of theses modalities, false teaching to hurt, and dis empower you and I. In spiritually they call it your Ego, No it's not ego it's a demon. You wouldn't hurt yourself but something outside of you would, something that can plant bad thoughts in your head. Something that would tell you God is not real, don't believe that. Everything she is saying isn't true. I know better. God doesn't love you. All of that and all negative thoughts come from the enemy. 
 So why has it taken me so long to share?. I needed time to heal, I needed to learn God's love for me. 
From this moment forward I would like to share and open the space for anyone going through similar situation, or anyone wanting to know God's love, I want to share what God is doing in my life. How much he has changed me for the better. How I don't need to rely on other teachings anymore. My God is good, my God loves me. He took me out of a deep hole, cleaned me up and is loving me more than ever. 

Thank you so much for reading today's Blog, 
Blessing for the New Year,
Angie Castillo
Life Style Coaching