Are you really defeated??? Getting past depression, guilt and shame!

      Getting past depression, shame and guilt!

Are you feeling defeated, has guilt, shame and depression brought you down?
 Are you living in a pit that seems to feel like quick sand?

I KNOW people don't talk about this ugly thing called depression, I know...Living in a world where we deny our feelings or pretending to be ok.
Sometimes believing  that what we are going through is just not that important to others. Living in a world were we have to put on a face of  "No, I'm fine"..
While you feel like your dying inside. No one gets you, no one understands what you feel.
Believe me I get it. I started battling depression at 21, I was a young single mother of 2 boys. I felt alone, confused and I had to force myself to work and provide for my children. I pushed through the undying feeling and found liquor as the answer. This went on for years until I found spirituality as liquor was no longer filling the void.
But are we truly created to live this way?. I say NO, a big NO, but why do some struggle with this and some don't?
Like myself I used liquor to avoid the feeling, some use drugs,shopping, sex, money, exercise, or work.
When there is a void(depression,shame,guilt,condemnation) that is not acknowledged it begins to destroy you. To some extend we all have some of these feelings, some people more than others. The suppressed emotions lead to a fiery pit.
                                                         But can we get out is the key question?
-While you are in the middle of these emotions you can feel hopeless, simply reaching out to someone will help.
-Taking a step to forgive yourself and who ever has hurt you.
-Sitting down to acknowledge what you are feeling. Maybe writing it down, releasing the anger in a constructive way.
-Writing  a letter to yourself, what would you say to yourself (what would you want to hear?)
-My favorite go somewhere were you can SCREAM it out. Depression can be sadness, or anger that has been suppressed.
-I know while in the pit everything feels miserable, but just ask God for help. Just one word, HELP, he will know exactly what you need.

For me prayer has helped me out, while my problem with depression has changed drastically there will be times that sometimes it wants to sneak in. Before I lived in depression, not anymore. If I feel any sadness, or hopelessness now I just pray, I give it up to God. I now know that if I'm feeling sad I can deal with it quicker and faster. Deal with what I'm currently facing and end it. I have added a prayer that feel will also help you, I know it helps me.

 Ephesians 6:13-18

Prepare yourself for each day's spiritual challenges by making the following prayer part of your morning routine:

"Dear Lord, as I get out of bed today, I know I'm stepping onto a battlefield. But I also know You've given me everything I need to stand firm. So in the power of Your Holy Spirit, I put on the armor of God:

"First, I place the helmet of salvation on my head. Protect my mind and imagination. Guard my eyes, allowing no sin to creep in. Focus my thoughts on the things of God. Let the breastplate of righteousness keep my heart and emotions safe. I pray that I won't be governed by my feelings, but by truth. Wrap Your Word around me like a belt. And safeguard me from error. I put on the sandals of peace to guide my steps. Plant my feet in Your truth. Empower me to stand firm against attack.

"Next, I take up the shield of faith. Protect me from Satan's fiery arrows. Place me shoulder to shoulder with Your army to oppose the Devil's schemes. Finally, I take up the sword of the Spirit, Your Word. Help me to read the Bible in a fresh, exciting way so I will always be ready to deflect attacks and pierce hearts with Your truth.

"I know I'll face assaults today, Lord. But You've empowered me to stand firm. Give me strength for the battle today."

Without God's armor, you're as vulnerable as a soldier who goes into battle wearing only a bathing suit. Get dressed for success!

I know that you and I were made to be victorious, 

I send many blessings your way.

Angie Castillo

Lifestyle Coaching

"Empowering you to be who you are meant to be"

What if God loved you??!! Walking away from being a Psychic Medium...

Living in a world of to much info!

As I've been away for a couple a weeks from blogging it was only to gain clarity from the chaos. Christmas is over, now to new beginnings. Yippy 2014!!

I have to get brave here, this is a touchy subject....

       So, I began my spiritual journey oh maybe 7 years ago. You see I came down with this condition called PSYCHIC! Wow, not your everyday cold or flu. It's a lot like Cancer. It's scary, the opposite through You want to die, not it wants to kill you.

Then 7 and a half years later I've given my life to the LORD. What a surprise?

                                                                 Maybe not!!. Read on...

Let me begin, 7 or 8 years ago while working as a Personal Trainer a co-worker noticed something in me  that was very familiar to her as well. One day she dropped the "Bomb" and said that I had the same ability as her to see dead people. I refused to believe this, but looking back it made sense to my life. Well she was in and out of my life quick, only to leave me with now what? 

Soon I found myself at the nearest book store looking for anything I could find on Psychics, Mediums and whatever else. This was the beginning of my journey. I began to meditate, study, take classes, you name it I did the whole enchilada on Metaphysics and spirituality. After 4, 5 years I became a teacher, teaching others on so many topics of healing, readings, energy, entity clearings. You name it I was teaching.. People thought I had it all figured out. I looked amazing, people loved being around my presence. I always got compliments on how peaceful and joyful I was.  Little did they know that at night I would lay down and ask God where are you?, why do I feel so stuck?, why do I feel so empty?, what is missing? 

For months I asked these questions, I started getting to the point of me asking many times in the day, I was becoming really confused on what I was teaching it wasn't feeling good anymore.

 Life was about making money, more money, and more money. The more I focused on making money the less I had. Men, sex, manipulation was the new thing I got entangled in by the modality I was learning and using. Everyone using this modality portrays to be doing great, that life is so amazing..they keep asking "How does it get any better?" yet, I haven't met anyone who truly is happy. Not even the founder or co-founder. 

  All of this was going against my morals, values and principals. This modality was drawing me more away from God. It didn't make sense. I cried out to God help me!! Please help me! I prayed so much and cried out continuously.

 He listened, he heard my cry. God pulled me out of what I was falling into, it was a deep hole. It took many month to feel better. Letting go of 7+ years of learnings that where not good for me. It's been rough, I can't lie. I was lying to myself everyday telling myself I was ok, and I wasn't.

       I'm now learning God's ways, the love he has for us. I feel so much joy I feel very different. I don't feel a need to have things or portray to the world what I am not.

      I'm I gifted? yes, very gifted, I'm I using my gifts at the moment like I was before? No, I stopped my business, teaching and everything I was doing. I could see how the enemy(demons) use all of theses modalities, false teaching to hurt, and dis empower you and I. In spiritually they call it your Ego, No it's not ego it's a demon. You wouldn't hurt yourself but something outside of you would, something that can plant bad thoughts in your head. Something that would tell you God is not real, don't believe that. Everything she is saying isn't true. I know better. God doesn't love you. All of that and all negative thoughts come from the enemy. 

 So why has it taken me so long to share?. I needed time to heal, I needed to learn God's love for me. 

From this moment forward I would like to share and open the space for anyone going through similar situation, or anyone wanting to know God's love, I want to share what God is doing in my life. How much he has changed me for the better. How I don't need to rely on other teachings anymore. My God is good, my God loves me. He took me out of a deep hole, cleaned me up and is loving me more than ever. 

Thank you so much for reading today's Blog, 

Blessing for the New Year,

Angie Castillo

Life Style Coaching

"She is clothes in dignity and strength"

 She wears dignity and strength...

As I step into knowing God so many transitions are happening. We first expect external change. Then we get upset when we don't see it..
Coming from the Metaphysical realm, self-help, the beliefs being taught are, you are the creator of your life. If you don't like it change it!. Humm, you take that piece of advice and run like hell or to hell I should say.
    Hell: a place regarded in various religions as a spiritual realm of evil and suffering.  

Yes suffering is hell and it doesn't exist as a place, It's more like a state. Trying to do everything ourselves can wreak major havoc in our lives. 
As a human species we have come to help one another, including God. God is here to help us out, to Root us on, to love us. "She is clothes in dignity and strength" not because she stands alone but because she has allowed God, and  people to help her.
           The perception of perfection is a good one, with so much social media people believe that what some post on Facebook, twitter, instagram is true. Showing off your car, your new dress or boyfriend looks so much fun, but how much of this is true?
  I was completely blinded by this phenomenon until.....Yes, I sat in class for 4 days and couldn't believe my eyes and ears. And this class is to better yourself I ask myself?
               Fakeness galore. I'm sorry, at this point talk about having a melt down to identity crisis.  The Aha moment for me!!!, 
Maybe I'm doing this too.
 After many months of looking at this. This had to change. I turned to God for answers I wanted to show people that being fake only takes you to that place of void and denial. Never looking at your reality as true. Creating deep, deep suffering. What you cannot change, God will change it for you.

               "She is strong and graceful, as well as cheerful about the future. Her words are sensible, and her advice is thoughtful."  

Through rough times we can stand alone or allow God to give us the strength. Through strength you find dignity and without fear of the future is created.

We as women become stronger during tough times. We allow the power within us to rise, we do it to live, for our children, to be somebody!!

Today's blog all over the place, it's only to get you to the place outside of your reality. To do what you think you cannot do. You are not alone, allow God to help you. God speaks through people, allow someone to help you reach your dreams...

Reach for your dreams, 

Angie Castillo

Intuitive Life Coach

Life Style Coaching

www.accessyourdreamlife.com

accessyourdreamlife@gmail.com